does attention really matter?
I firmly believe that our ordinary human lives can glorify God. He created us to live and glorify him, so the ordinary things that are part of our human calling—breathing, sleeping, eating—are not separate from a life that glorifies God. I also believe that our work, play, and rest can glorify God. They are extensions of our human callings, part of God’s vision for his creation that He gave us in the garden. Even people who don’t know God are still his beautiful creations, bearing his image as they live and breathe and work and play and rest.
We have a park and a good sledding hill across the street from us. Sometimes in winter I watch teenagers sled down that hill and laugh and laugh and I know in that moment God is delighted in them. I can feel it as I watch and laugh even just to myself. God is delighted that those teenagers are engaging with his creation in such a free and pure way.
This is why sometimes I tell people to just make art for play or make it ugly on purpose. Just let yourself be, without even thinking, just enjoy yourself! This, too, can be part of a life that glorifies God. We don’t have to turn it into something “spiritual” first.
So why do I talk about “contemplative play” so much, if we don’t have to turn every moment into a spiritual practice?Well, the fact of the matter is, God is so good and so loving that as we live our ordinary lives, He also invites us to know Him and love Him more and more. This is where the contemplative part comes in. If we take a moment in the play, in the work, in the rest, to notice what is going on inside, to surrender to God in that moment, to ask him for help, to praise him, in all of it saying, “this, too, is for you, God,” then we are working on a perspective shift, growing in our inmost lives and fostering a deeper love for Him in everything.
There is so much talk about self-reflection, and that is good and worth doing. But as Christians, our self-reflection should be more focused on Jesus, and as we reflect on Him, He reveals more and more of who we are.
When I was a teenager, I wrote in my journals something like the following:
I’ve noticed that when I am closer to Jesus and keeping my eyes on him, I feel more and more like myself. It doesn’t make sense, but it makes me think that somehow we were created to be more fully ourselves when Jesus is at the center.
I have never forgotten this. This is the point of the contemplative life: keeping Jesus at the center. And He is so good that He, in turn, makes us more and more of our true selves. That is the abundant life that He promises: to live fully as the people He created us to be. This is what I’m talking about when I say where we place our attention matters.
When we do surrender, our attention slowly begins to shift. This is where those good spiritual practices come in. We begin to make space in new ways, and over time we find ourselves noticing God’s abundance where we couldn’t see it before. Life may not have changed, but our eyes are more open to His presence, goodness, beauty, and love. (attention, surrender, and the life we have)
So don’t feel guilty when you are happy, or when you are playing, or when you are working and you aren’t always thinking about God. We won’t keep our conscious minds on God all the time, and it isn’t a failing; it is part of being human. (Isn’t this so freeing?) But do take time to do the good spiritual practices, do the examens, schedule spiritual direction, take a moment to make space, do some breath prayers through the day. Not because these practices make the rest of your life more holy, but because they help turn your attention toward the God who is already there. The attention matters because God is good enough to want us to grow in our love for him, and He will help us along the way.